I’d much rather be me than you, dear

How does it feel that your supposed seriously committed boyfriend was cheating on you with me over the last two years until I discovered as much and broke it off with him immediately?

When you continue, long after the fact, to convince me that he loves you, flaunting headless body shots and posting mean girl memes to make your point, isn’t that queer?

He is no prize. I discarded him for good reason. Congratulations on your win.

I’d much rather be me than you, dear.

~ Just L (November 18, 2018)

Author’s Note: Drafts from my upcoming chapbook on narcissists and cheaters. Working title: “Love Bombed”

Confident women set healthy boundaries. They aren’t afraid to walk away when something isn’t working and the thought that they won’t be able to find better or that they will wind up alone doesn’t cross their mind. The can quickly see when a situation is damaging and will remove themselves immediately. Only insecure people put up with treatment that is unacceptable, in large part because they feel that that’s what they deserve on some level. When you learn to value yourself, you will weed out anyone who doesn’t truly value you.

Their Smiles Betrayed Their Reasoning

They met on a beach
Not at home but not on vacation

Talked about life, relationships, and music
Found they had much in common

Nothing at stake they were vulnerable and open
Isn’t that the way it is in the beginning?

Over the months they made plans to reunite
And did on several occasions

Super Bowl, on holiday, birthday tattoo
Made a point to connect in every season

In between, plain texts gave way to kissing emojis
Interspersed with sweetie, babe, or hun

Each time they kissed goodbye
Just a little longer lingering

Acting as if it would never work
Their smiles betrayed their reasoning

~ Just L (November 17, 2018)

When you find….

out your lover of two years was a liar and a cheater, and you break it off because of this, don’t be fooled, you were never friends.

And if he isn’t a liar and cheater, congratulations, MG, you succeeded in making me believe it is so. And so…

(drum roll)

YOU WON!

Don’t you feel fabulous?

~ Just L (November 14, 2018)

Author’s Note: I never had any secrets.

And you MG know absolutely nothing about integrity.

Your constant harassment of me and revolving posts about me prove my point.

Try taking your first meme to heart.

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If You Knew (Mark My Words)

 If you knew how he felt about you
Your posts of him may not be so sweet
He does not sparkle with pride
Surely your love is not so complete

If I knew about you
I may have saved myself the trouble
Simply loving my own fabulous life
Until the truth be told burst my bubble

If you knew what he did without you
Where his energy was every last moment
You may not be so boastful
Don’t think I don’t see your torment

Once I knew about you
I drew the line, as a woman of integrity
Immediately resetting my sails
Reclaiming my authenticity

If you knew how he spoke about you
Harsh words, a reflection of his heart
If you had any self-worth at all
You’d, too, set yourself apart

If only I knew you
I’d give you the wisdom of my age
No promise or bond is worth it
You’ll become bitter and full of rage

Mark my words.

~ Just L (November 14, 2018)

 

 

 

For me, it will always be about love…

For me, it will always be about love

Not the looking for

Or falling in

Nor the being in

Simply the being

Open to

Trusting

Holding space for

Again and again.

~Just L (November 5, 2018)

 

Author’s Note: My love for you was the most truthful thing I ever felt. Wiser, gentler, more vulnerable.  I approached each day and every situation anew. Certain we were brought together to be a force for love. And yet, love did not win. The distance between us is too great. I had to choose to leave you and love me.

Unrequited love can be survived in a way that once-requited love cannot. – John Green