What if we were meant to be forever after
In spite of the story to date
In separate bedrooms, down the street filled with laughter
Perhaps our match Doula knew us deeper
Watched you for a full year before our introduction
Knowing full well you were a keeper
What if we split too soon due to a breakdown in communication
Our egos and preconceived ideas erecting an insurmountable wall
Misreading what was between us really goin’ on
Recall my dearest love you were vetted for a year
You fit me in every way and in my family with ease
Everyone we knew found us sparkly, trustworthy and dear
Our paths crossed long before we were introduced across the bar
Given all of the R&D, no wonder we felt mutually drawn
Six weeks later I exclaimed my love under NYE stars
Never a fight or unkind word until I experienced my most abnormal
I lashed out, and was angry for something misinterpreted
And a medical emergency beyond my control
You vowed you would never leave a love in sickness
After all, the one who broke your heart did just that
Then you cut me off as you could not go the distance
I freaked the f* out as this was not how I imagined
We were, after all the love, over in an instant
One more conversation, we could have been a legend.
~Just L (July 10, 2019)
What if I were to sit next to you
Would you want to kiss me?
Let it be easy
Instead of playing cool —
What if our togetherness was fated
From the beginning?
We didn’t fear leaning in
Finding our differences miniscule –-
What if everything since
Was a holding place?
To make us better face-to-face
A long distance relationship school –-
What if we (’ve) matured
Fully trusting each other?
Drop the ego cover
F* the few who are cruel —
What if you were assured
We would do the distance?
Could you drop your resistance
Dare to be the happiest fool —
What if you lived your words,
“Lasting relationships take work”?
Too many throw in the towel *smirk*
Newer (read: don’t know the real you) is not life’s jewel —
What if we embraced togetherness
Safe inside a fortress wall?
Imagine a love overhaul
True happiness, no one dare ridicule —
What if we retained our space
Two wings in the same castle?
Fully entwined without the hassle
Separated by miles, rooms or a pool —
What if we found the balance
‘tween intimacy and independence?
Questioning everything since
That other band from Liverpool —
What if you assume the worst
Put defeat before the horse?
And let it take its course
I’d challenge you to a duel —
What if the world applauded us
Dare to be true to our heart
Or embarrassed by the time apart?
When did you follow the rules?
If you were to sit next to me
I would need to kiss you
It’s nothing new
I don’t know how to be cool.
~ Just L (July 10, 2019)
Author’s Note: Listen to “Sit Next To Me” by Foster The People
You are cool as a cucumber
Until Aries enters the house
Warming your starchy skin
in a pair of worn Levi Strauss
I love freedom and risk
You landlocked by protocol
a contradictory coupling, we helplessly fall
First child’s flame singes virgin wings
Ever challenging your M.O.
Too easy when your taste for the exotic
is Jicama, aka the Mexican potato
Craving each other with every fiber
Our attraction feels so fated
Impossible to resist the razor’s edge
between being loved and hated
~ Just L (July 8, 2019)
We made a match
Had a short chat
He’s smart, stylish
And has a cat.
Cool and confident
Know I’m a catch
I put myself online
Set to be attached.
“Meet up tonight?”
Finding myself in his hood
Shared backstories and kisses
This is too good.
My heart receptive
Spirit strong and light
Breathing in the moment
Aware of fight or flight.
Open and kind
And, I kinda like him
He, too, feel the weight of?
~Just L (May 19, 2019)
Author’s Note: Simply tracking the subtle opening and closing of my heart after initiating a connection. Is the Universe conspiring to accelerate gravity? Naaah, it won’t last.
I saw you on the street
In passing, We embraced
You introduced me to your “friend”
Beautiful like a tiny painting
With a limp dishrag handshake.
I greeted you full, squarely on
With my usual over-the-top energy
“So great to see you; and meet you”
I didn’t even suck in my stomach
I don’t need your approval,
~ Just L (February 5, 2019)
When I saw you
Make a life
Shared the same heart
Missed each other
Our lips met
You didn’t see me.
~Just L (January 22, 2019)
I want someone who holds my hand as tightly as they hold my heart;
And misses me desperately when we are apart.
I want someone who adores their life and family
And embraces every moment honestly.
I want someone who is silly and can laugh;
And yet willing to fight on my behalf.
I want someone who fearlessly lives with integrity;
And is open to forge a shared destiny.
I want someone who finds joy in the present;
And one whose soul is luminescent.
I want someone who wants to grow old with me
Without ever growing old, you see.
~ Just L (December 31, 2018)
Author’s Note: I want more.
Tropical flowers are red,
The sky is blue,
The sun is hot,
And so are you.
Water taxis are white,
Yachts are rare,
The water is shiny
And so is your hair.
Chickens lay eggs,
Force is strong,
And so are your legs.
Up to the skies,
The sand is sparkly,
And so are your eyes.
Iguanas in hedges,
Mean no harm,
Arrival is safe,
And so are your arms.
Locals are pretty,
Guests have style,
My party is winning,
And so is your smile.
Two rivers meet the sea
In southern Jalisco
The Bay is beautiful,
Just like you.
~ Just L (November 29, 2018)
Author’s Note: Yelapa, Mexico. Yelapa means where two rivers meet the sea.
And she replied,
I can, and have. I am at a very free stage in my life. I have been deeply in love and I have had my heart broken. I have spent the last year guarded, practicing my yoga, and in reflection. I have done my fair share of playing, but when pursued, a small voice keeps pushing back, and telling me to wait for that spark.
You said that our first four days felt like fourteen years – that you felt like you had known me forever. I share that feeling.
I sense that I have something, perhaps many things to learn from you. And in turn, about me.
I am, of course, still getting to know you. I believe in the law of attraction. Something deeply draws me to you. I like that you are traveled, articulate, care about your health, and are spiritual. We share a passion for music of all kinds. You are talented and passionate about what you do. Family is a priority. You have an adventurous spirit like me, and yet you are peaceful and can be comfortably present and quiet. I like that very much.
My hand fits in yours perfectly, and in your arms feels like home in the sense that I don’t have to think much at all.
~ Just L (from a simpler time, published November 25, 2018)
I love my Handsome
He is generous and kind
He has two inked arms
An amusing attitude
When he laughs I feel happy
~ Just L (November 25, 2018)
Author’s Note: The Tanka poem is very similar to haiku but Tanka poems have more syllables and it uses simile, metaphor and personification. There are five lines and thirty-one-syllables in a Tanka poem. Tanka poems are written about nature, seasons, love, sadness and other strong emotions. This form of poetry dates back almost 1200 years ago.